MOTIVATION TO STUDY.

YES.

i've finally i look forward to studying now.
i realised, that, one of the major set backs i face in school that hindered myself from performing and having the motivation to study, is ---> STRESS. STRESS FROM TEACHERS.

stress from school teachers totally turns me off.
since a very long time ago (and thankfully, till only recently),
i had 0 motivation to study. i know i wanted to study, to do well, but,
i just cant bring myself to do so.

it felt as if something is really making me pissed off.
that i didnt want to study. there seemed to be so much more other things i'll rather do.

but now, i am able to focus, study, and perform well in lesson. why?
BECAUSE MY TEACHERS ARE GIVING LESS STRESS FROM ME.

econs --> i dont get picked on that often, and teacher's actually so much nicer now. and i realised econs isnt really that hard. just have to seriously sit down, and read through the notes, and UNDERSTAND instead of memorising. understanding the rationale, think with common sense, and throw in the nomenclatures, and u'll find that there's sooo much things in econs u can do now.

bio --> i gotta say, my bio teacher is one very patient person. she'll go slow whenever asked, and will be patient to clarify any doubts, no questions asked. and i really thank her for all that.
it took some time to get used to her sharp tongue, but we all know she's just trying to be more casual chatting with us.
took some time, but i dare say our class is starting to get 'closer' with her. ^ ^

maths --> i feel guilty. my maths tutor is nice and all, but somehow, i just sort of put everything else in higher priority than maths. i guess its from all the nagging i get at home. i hate people to nag at me. more they nag, more i rebel.
it's just me.
maybe i'm being childish.
but that is really how i feel.
i hate maths now because my mum keep asking me about how my maths' going.
T_T

CHEMISTRY --> i am SO GLAD, that im banded in the weakest group of students in school. some people think its a form of discriminaton, but to me, its liberation.
liberation from my chem tutor. true that he really tries very hard to help and all that, but the thing is, he doesnt know how to help in the correct way.
he gives sooo much stress, and sometimes, end up being one hell of a demoralising kind of person.
if u cant answer him in 5 seconds, u're good gamed.
he'll give u that stare that says 'u are hopeless'.
hopeless hopeless
hopeless.
HOPELESS.
T_T

gosh. im just glad that im in band C. no stress, and im not afraid of flashing my answers. yeah. i get a major confident boost. and i love chem double periods now. in fact, i look forward to these chem lessons.


woosh. LONG entry of boring stuff.
hahaha,
look forward to inorganic test, and bio test. hope i'll be able to pull myself up considerably.
its not too late.
i like my subjects and i liked doing my work soo much more now. ^^

shude.

emo-momo.

damn. i have no idea why im in jc. i have no motivation, im discouraged, and i felt so stressed in school. i liked coming to school, but dread going for lessons. im sure all those who know me in class knows what lesson i hate most.

im being compared all the time. it's not that im very pissed with being compared with others. true, i do very badly for ALL my academic subjects, but do people have to compare it ALL THE TIME? they do it everyday, every period.

im human,
im a teen.
it hurts.
and it did.

sometimes, encouragements are like discouragements.

sigh.. really. what im studying now is not what i want to do in the future.
i no longer remember my aims anymore. i no longer remember what i want to be when i grow up..

and. im not as good in anything as everyone thinks i am.
its true.

just some voices from within.
but it'll fade away soon.
it always do.
i hope for this time too.


shude..